Q: "why you go to school when you already over twenty?"
me: "to improve my life"
Q: "but do you see how your life has changed now? you can't even make $100, then what you are doing now is not to improve your life at all"
me: "i could see some things clearly. it's not about the money after all"
Q: "... then you will understand when you don't have money for treatment."
i just lie to you and myself to the things i don't want to admit because i don't want to see myself as a loser. i victimized myself procrastinating to the things i think it should be done long ago. i should finish my school 2 years ago but still, i'm here, being a loser.